John,I miss you so much my heartache will never go, you are still with me in every thought in every thing I do every plan I have I just think if only our John could be here but I only hope you are looking down on us and hope with all my heart that it is a better place you are in and that you have gone on your journey and you will wait for me, when I am really down I keep thinking that you are somewhere really nice and reunited with family and good friends, because John it is so hard here withouy you, you were and still are so precious to me, I will love you forever my darling. Till we meet again my darling, your broken hearted mam xxxxxxx Dear Lord please give our John a hug for me as I never got that chance.